Guess we can't push our way thru fate.

I guess this is what it feels like dissapointment. Try so hard to change the fate that had given to you.

I always wonder whether we could defy something that God created.. Not that I am bad but just hope that sometimes we can have our own way. But in the end, I knew the result is no.

Starting from this year, I realized I have so much to do here. No matter what dissapointment I am facing, but I still realized life have to go on. The tasks that God given to me have to go on. I cannot stop. So I would stop giving myself excuse and stay there. I want to live more outward for God and for my own sake.

Yesterday, I had an interesting conversation with one of my friend. Is about me growing up. To tell the truth, haven't I? Maybe some people see me as naive. But I guess depends on how people look at me. For myself, it is a way to prevent the world reality to hit me at my heart and prevents me from walking forward.

People have to find their way to walk forward, and unfortunately, most people tend to keep secrets in their heart and try to walk forward. But the truth maybe is they are neither going forward nor backward. Just standing there and try to figure out how to change the current situation.

Maybe thats why people cannot accept christ. Because they do not want to be expose. They do not want to be identify as a failure and being not able to do something, especially man. Well, for myself. I am trying to live forward. Realizing my own mistakes and try to change as much as I can. I hate people tell out my mistakes, but I hate even more if I have more self pity on myself and stuck on the past.

Wonder how does you guys feel about your life and do you know whether you are living forward or backward or stagnant? If anyone have any problems, can always share with me. I am always there to listen and pray for you.

God bless everyone. (^_^)