It has being quite awhile since I come back on writing this blog. Not that I am busy, but just feel that there's no point writing. I think..
These days, the weather are getting hotter. So hot, that I think is unbearable. Even here, the summer really would not make me sweat. Makes me feel that winter could be better than summer.
Anyway, I always heard this phrase. "Summer is the season for romantic relationship." Haha.. Don't ask me where I heard this, coz I never remember.
Until now, I always feel God always have HIS way of pushing us towards the way HE wanted. I don't know how HE did it but it always turns out all the outcome is not what I imagined. But since God is in control, I have nothing to worry. Just gonna do my best to work everything out. I know God would provide me with all the things that I need.
Like my HUGE title said, My Life Starts Here. It IS a TURNING POINT for me. Coming to Japan is unexpected for me. Being able to survive here is also unexpected for me as well. God definitely have HIS plan for me. Because everything seems to going towards the right way.
These few months, I think God trying to settle me down. Well, for starters, I always have a feeling that within 3 years, I would be married and going on with my life non-single. Argh.. so sad, I have to put my Europe trip aside and focus on God's work. Well, I guess it is time anyway. Working for God full time. Guess playing too long kinda makes us all tired as well, emotionally and physically. AND time is not on our side. Coz we all grow older day by day.
For these few months, I have keep asking God. Where is my life partner then? If needed to settle down, I would want someone to accompany me. Would not like to live my life alone. And yeah, who would want that?
Well, from this day on. Would rush forward. Not looking back into my past and feel sad. It is time to move forward and see what God have in store for me.
To tell the truth, till now and in my future. I always hold on to one words. Never change no matter what. That is LOVE. I always have the heart to love people, love myself and love everything around me. Eventhough I might look cold and not open up to people, but I am trying my best to love people around me, who needed love from people.
Talk about love. Start from yesterday, I am having a 40 days fasting. This is to prove to God that I am serious about wanting my friend gotten safe. I wanted God to present miracle to my friend so that she can realize God is the only true God who can save her soul and her life. Well, 40 days fasting dinner is so hard. But to prove my sincerity to God. It is something I have to do. Just hope the results works.
That's it from me today. Everyone have a great day ahead. God bless.
P.S. It is really a hot day. Feel like getting some ice-cream. But on dieting and fasting. So sad. And study so hard. Pray for me ok? 皆さん、頑張れ。皆の生活は絶対に楽しみになります。
q(^_^)p
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Friday, April 11, 2008
Breakthrough in my Life
To tell the truth, I never know God can be this persuasive. Haha.. I felt like now I have being put into a hot pan and ask me to be still.. to wait for my turn to move. Regardless it is about work or about my life.
HE is teaching me patience. In my room, HE teach me how to be patient with my room mate. In outside, HE teach me to be patient to wait for a job. A job that is suitable for me.
Funny isn't it? How our life turns out. These days slowly, I am letting go of my own plan and stick to God's plan.
I always feel it is a waste to let go of my own plan to go Europe and have a travel before I reach 30. But God always have HIS plan to mess up ours. Well, just go with the flow I guess.
Now I don't care anymore. Just stay here and focus on what I should be doing for God. Not for myself. Maybe that would produce more fruits for me. And also help me to settle down as well. Struggle in my life maybe would help me grow.
These days, it is only about me and God. About building my relationship with God. About me building relationship with people and also have a great life ahead with my trust on GOD.
Anyway, my life still good. Just going through some changes. Good changes that would bring me to a better place. I always believe God has a plan for me. All I need to do is trust in GOD and go for it. Maybe one day I would realized the dreams that God always put in my heart.
Take care people. May God bless you all too.
P.S. Always praying for my friends in Malaysia, Australia and Japan. Of course, Indonesia friends as well.. ;)
HE is teaching me patience. In my room, HE teach me how to be patient with my room mate. In outside, HE teach me to be patient to wait for a job. A job that is suitable for me.
Funny isn't it? How our life turns out. These days slowly, I am letting go of my own plan and stick to God's plan.
I always feel it is a waste to let go of my own plan to go Europe and have a travel before I reach 30. But God always have HIS plan to mess up ours. Well, just go with the flow I guess.
Now I don't care anymore. Just stay here and focus on what I should be doing for God. Not for myself. Maybe that would produce more fruits for me. And also help me to settle down as well. Struggle in my life maybe would help me grow.
These days, it is only about me and God. About building my relationship with God. About me building relationship with people and also have a great life ahead with my trust on GOD.
Anyway, my life still good. Just going through some changes. Good changes that would bring me to a better place. I always believe God has a plan for me. All I need to do is trust in GOD and go for it. Maybe one day I would realized the dreams that God always put in my heart.
Take care people. May God bless you all too.
P.S. Always praying for my friends in Malaysia, Australia and Japan. Of course, Indonesia friends as well.. ;)
Monday, April 7, 2008
Living in this crazy world.
These two days, I have being doing some journaling about my spiritual life. Throughout my journaling, I always have the idea that God had given me victory. All I have to do is believe and wait still for the promise to come to me.
These days, I have being waiting for a job. I have being waiting for my turn to earn my own money. Well, to tell the truth, I am trying to teach. But since no students, I am kinda free.
Life here without money is suffering. Haha.. Sadly to say, now I suddenly realized when we need money to survive.. God is very important all of the sudden because in this life, we need HIM to survive in this crazy world.
Guess everyone have their world to live right? I need to find my own already. I have being wondering around for too long.
Living here suddenly opens up my mind about the reality of life. Makes me a better person, ( Hopefully ). And also let me understand about ways to survive in this world.
These days, I have being waiting for a job. I have being waiting for my turn to earn my own money. Well, to tell the truth, I am trying to teach. But since no students, I am kinda free.
Life here without money is suffering. Haha.. Sadly to say, now I suddenly realized when we need money to survive.. God is very important all of the sudden because in this life, we need HIM to survive in this crazy world.
Guess everyone have their world to live right? I need to find my own already. I have being wondering around for too long.
Living here suddenly opens up my mind about the reality of life. Makes me a better person, ( Hopefully ). And also let me understand about ways to survive in this world.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Boredness and Wasting Money
Wonder why I put boredness and wasting money as title today?
I wanted to talk about my life here. Well, this is kinda the ups and downs of my life. To tell the truth, working here is all about self improvement. In order to stay in this country, I think everyone would go through boredness in their experience.
Somehow, I know God put me here for a good reason. Everyone that I heard, is not good to stay in Japan. Haha.. I also have no idea why I would be staying here. But since I have the passion for the people here, and God wanted me to stay here. Guess I have no looking back.
Almost everyday, I look back at my life. How far had I walked in my life. What had I done. And to tell the truth, nothing. All I see is that I just walking down a path which is so lonely and fill with so much uncertainty.
And these days, as time flows by, it gives me a even clear idea about life. It is so short that we could spend our entire life without doing anything useful. So Why are we born in this earth? What is our purpose?
Don't get me wrong. As for me, seriously, I know my purpose. I know that I have to spread gospel here and tell Japanese people about God. HE had brought me so far. And in this life, without HIM, I would never be surviving until now.
In my life, I feel I wasted alot of my mother's money as well. Well, not because I don't understand saving money is important, but it is hard for me to understand the value of money. But to tell the truth, ever since I prayed to God to help me save money and see the value of money. I started to understand all the $$ and the numbers. Haha..
But there is still a long way to go. In Japan, we should save money wisely. Not everything can be save and not everything can be buy. That's where my logic comes in.
All my close friends still keep telling me that I am a very sensible person. Very logical person. I really feel that this is my strength and also my weakness. Being sensible and logical person maybe can earn one's trust. But it also causes me to lost my emotions.
Everyday, I felt like a robot living in a world full of traps. And this robot, not only can avoid problems and issues, it can help people to live their life. This is somehow I felt of myself. But after awhile, I started to think about my life. What had I done to myself? Why couldn't I like someone? Why could't I dare myself to chase after the emotions that I long for?
Well, that's all my feeling.
In real life, I am still like to help people. Maybe it is somehow my calling. To sacrifice myself for the sake of others. Ever since young, I always have the feeling that I should LOVE others like I love myself. Therefore, I never gave up on this concept and live forward with this mindset.
This is what being keeping me alive and keeping me living in my own dreams. Recently, suddenly I woke up from this dream and realized maybe what I did is for nothing.
But I trust in God. I trust in HIS calling for me. If not I would be surviving for so long. I know that being a human means we would have doubts and have sadness.
I believe that in time to come, I would fulfill my purpose for God and live my life to the fullness. For now, all we need is patience and endurance. Endure all the hardship until I can reach my goal. Till now, God had never let me down. No matter how hard my problems are, it would never compare to the pain that Jesus died for me at the cross. It is the worst punishment beyond everyone could imagine. Therefore, I would never give up and live forward. I always see a silver lining in my life. Hopefully can reach there soon.
Anyway, God bless everyone.
I wanted to talk about my life here. Well, this is kinda the ups and downs of my life. To tell the truth, working here is all about self improvement. In order to stay in this country, I think everyone would go through boredness in their experience.
Somehow, I know God put me here for a good reason. Everyone that I heard, is not good to stay in Japan. Haha.. I also have no idea why I would be staying here. But since I have the passion for the people here, and God wanted me to stay here. Guess I have no looking back.
Almost everyday, I look back at my life. How far had I walked in my life. What had I done. And to tell the truth, nothing. All I see is that I just walking down a path which is so lonely and fill with so much uncertainty.
And these days, as time flows by, it gives me a even clear idea about life. It is so short that we could spend our entire life without doing anything useful. So Why are we born in this earth? What is our purpose?
Don't get me wrong. As for me, seriously, I know my purpose. I know that I have to spread gospel here and tell Japanese people about God. HE had brought me so far. And in this life, without HIM, I would never be surviving until now.
In my life, I feel I wasted alot of my mother's money as well. Well, not because I don't understand saving money is important, but it is hard for me to understand the value of money. But to tell the truth, ever since I prayed to God to help me save money and see the value of money. I started to understand all the $$ and the numbers. Haha..
But there is still a long way to go. In Japan, we should save money wisely. Not everything can be save and not everything can be buy. That's where my logic comes in.
All my close friends still keep telling me that I am a very sensible person. Very logical person. I really feel that this is my strength and also my weakness. Being sensible and logical person maybe can earn one's trust. But it also causes me to lost my emotions.
Everyday, I felt like a robot living in a world full of traps. And this robot, not only can avoid problems and issues, it can help people to live their life. This is somehow I felt of myself. But after awhile, I started to think about my life. What had I done to myself? Why couldn't I like someone? Why could't I dare myself to chase after the emotions that I long for?
Well, that's all my feeling.
In real life, I am still like to help people. Maybe it is somehow my calling. To sacrifice myself for the sake of others. Ever since young, I always have the feeling that I should LOVE others like I love myself. Therefore, I never gave up on this concept and live forward with this mindset.
This is what being keeping me alive and keeping me living in my own dreams. Recently, suddenly I woke up from this dream and realized maybe what I did is for nothing.
But I trust in God. I trust in HIS calling for me. If not I would be surviving for so long. I know that being a human means we would have doubts and have sadness.
I believe that in time to come, I would fulfill my purpose for God and live my life to the fullness. For now, all we need is patience and endurance. Endure all the hardship until I can reach my goal. Till now, God had never let me down. No matter how hard my problems are, it would never compare to the pain that Jesus died for me at the cross. It is the worst punishment beyond everyone could imagine. Therefore, I would never give up and live forward. I always see a silver lining in my life. Hopefully can reach there soon.
Anyway, God bless everyone.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Relationship
What do you know about human relationship? Nothing, that's what I know. Everything is so vague and so not-constant. Everything can be change just like that in one split seconds.
I always feel that in our life, friendship and relationship is like a bus trip. There would be people coming on and off this bus. We can say a thousand words about love and about trust. We can say that we would be forever. But in the end, we would break up, or we would have so much disagreement between each other. At last, this cause our relationship to be broken forever just because of one simple mistakes. So easy. But why do everyone still going back for more? Why do people still yearn so much about love?
Well, it must always be that their heart is empty. All of us have an emptiness in our heart. What do we use to fill it up? Like I said before. Japanese people really yearn for love. They yearn for something which money cannot buy. Affection and love from other people.
One friend of mine have being keep reminding me, that I should stop neglecting my own emotions and start facing my emotion. Why am I avoiding? What am I doing? To tell the truth, I myself do not understand.
If I wanted to settle down, What type of gals that I like? Who would be suitable for me? Should I observe more before tell a gal? How long is the friendship period?
Everytime need to crack my head about relationship, i rather stand back and watch it go away. Eventhough it is the hardest thing to do. But I feel I shouldn't say something that would probably hurt myself and hurt the other person.
I am worried that I might give out too much. This would probably choke the other person. I scare I might give too much and become an annoyance, etc.
Sad isn't it? To find out all the doubt in my heart. I sometimes hate myself for thinking so much. For having so much thoughts. To be thoughtful to other people except myself. I also hate myself for being so femine and feel so weak.
At the surface, I tried my best to be a Leo, which is strong and very fierce, and very dependant person. But inside of my heart, I am a very soft, weak and emotional person. Maybe other person never knows. I always cried. But it is all inside my heart. I cried so much. My heart is somehow being "soaked" by my tears. Well, this type of a person which gals would think not reliable isn't it? Haha.. funny isn't it? How can a guy be like this?
After seeing all types of relationship between two person, I started to realize that I could not live my life based on humans' love. I need to find something more solid to based my life upon. Therefore, I found God's love.
Until now, I never regret giving my life unto God. HE always provide me with all the strength I need to walk forward. Now that God's love is with me. To tell the truth, I very rare wanted to depend on people's love. Eventhough, sometimes it is true. We get lonely and need someone to talk to. I am glad that we have friends.
Come to think of it. Eversince young, I never really have much heart-to-heart friends. Until now, maybe I have 3 or 4. And sadly to say, mostly are girls. Why do I have so many girls friends? I myself also need explanation.
Alot of times, my girls friends keep telling me. "You are very suitable to be friends. You are my very good friends." Do you know how many times I wanted to tell them that, I am fed up to have so many good friends. I wanted someone to tell me that I can be more than friends.
This is what I get for being so reasonable all the time. Being so cool all the time. Somehow I DID regret to being cool and reasonable all the time. Giving peoples' advice, guide them to grow in a proper way, a happy way. But I have to sacrifice my own life to make them happy.
Is that a good thing? Or is that a bad thing? I myself also don't know. But at least I can live a happy life without disturbing the peacefulness of other people. No matter how much I like another person, just treat it as nothing. Maybe it would go away. Right?
Anyway, good nite people. Have a great day ahead. God bless.
P.S. Today is sakura start blossoming period. I can felt the scent of sakura flowers blossoming. It makes me so excited and happy.
I always feel that in our life, friendship and relationship is like a bus trip. There would be people coming on and off this bus. We can say a thousand words about love and about trust. We can say that we would be forever. But in the end, we would break up, or we would have so much disagreement between each other. At last, this cause our relationship to be broken forever just because of one simple mistakes. So easy. But why do everyone still going back for more? Why do people still yearn so much about love?
Well, it must always be that their heart is empty. All of us have an emptiness in our heart. What do we use to fill it up? Like I said before. Japanese people really yearn for love. They yearn for something which money cannot buy. Affection and love from other people.
One friend of mine have being keep reminding me, that I should stop neglecting my own emotions and start facing my emotion. Why am I avoiding? What am I doing? To tell the truth, I myself do not understand.
If I wanted to settle down, What type of gals that I like? Who would be suitable for me? Should I observe more before tell a gal? How long is the friendship period?
Everytime need to crack my head about relationship, i rather stand back and watch it go away. Eventhough it is the hardest thing to do. But I feel I shouldn't say something that would probably hurt myself and hurt the other person.
I am worried that I might give out too much. This would probably choke the other person. I scare I might give too much and become an annoyance, etc.
Sad isn't it? To find out all the doubt in my heart. I sometimes hate myself for thinking so much. For having so much thoughts. To be thoughtful to other people except myself. I also hate myself for being so femine and feel so weak.
At the surface, I tried my best to be a Leo, which is strong and very fierce, and very dependant person. But inside of my heart, I am a very soft, weak and emotional person. Maybe other person never knows. I always cried. But it is all inside my heart. I cried so much. My heart is somehow being "soaked" by my tears. Well, this type of a person which gals would think not reliable isn't it? Haha.. funny isn't it? How can a guy be like this?
After seeing all types of relationship between two person, I started to realize that I could not live my life based on humans' love. I need to find something more solid to based my life upon. Therefore, I found God's love.
Until now, I never regret giving my life unto God. HE always provide me with all the strength I need to walk forward. Now that God's love is with me. To tell the truth, I very rare wanted to depend on people's love. Eventhough, sometimes it is true. We get lonely and need someone to talk to. I am glad that we have friends.
Come to think of it. Eversince young, I never really have much heart-to-heart friends. Until now, maybe I have 3 or 4. And sadly to say, mostly are girls. Why do I have so many girls friends? I myself also need explanation.
Alot of times, my girls friends keep telling me. "You are very suitable to be friends. You are my very good friends." Do you know how many times I wanted to tell them that, I am fed up to have so many good friends. I wanted someone to tell me that I can be more than friends.
This is what I get for being so reasonable all the time. Being so cool all the time. Somehow I DID regret to being cool and reasonable all the time. Giving peoples' advice, guide them to grow in a proper way, a happy way. But I have to sacrifice my own life to make them happy.
Is that a good thing? Or is that a bad thing? I myself also don't know. But at least I can live a happy life without disturbing the peacefulness of other people. No matter how much I like another person, just treat it as nothing. Maybe it would go away. Right?
Anyway, good nite people. Have a great day ahead. God bless.
P.S. Today is sakura start blossoming period. I can felt the scent of sakura flowers blossoming. It makes me so excited and happy.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Love (愛)
"Other country are lack of food, and physical resources. But Japan is a country, which is lack of love."
I love this phrase given by Jesus Life House's pastor today. That's right. Ever since I step into Japan. I can hear peoples' cry for love here. They are crying out for attention and peoples' care for them.
Here in Japan, it is a very advanced country. Everyone is living comfortably for their lives. When every physical need is being covered, people would yearn for something higher, LOVE. Strange isn't it. Those poor country people, would love each other and would appreciate with what they have. Yet, on the other hand, those rich country people, like Japan, they yearn for something which could never be able to be bought by money, which is love.
Everyday in Japan, I felt so burdened. Especially when I walk down on the street, seeing people talking to each other, all I felt is emptiness in their conversation and emptiness in their heart and faces. I wanted so much to tell them about God. Tell them about how great to believe in the one and only God.
I realized that Easter day, today not only about Jesus died for us and rose again. I felt that Easter day is also another event, which is important for us to renew our spirit to walk on the path of life.
God is amazing. I always believe that if we follow HIS plan, HE would provide us with everything that we need according to HIS will and HIS time. I always know the Holy Spirit have being guiding me to find the right church, the right people, the right job and the right university.
Well, ever since I felt that I being "planted" in Japan. Everything I need would be supplied to me. I felt peace in me. God is always with us and would help us walk thru the storm no matter what.
Lastly, let me tell you all about a song I found.
The youtube site for this song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2kESLwpNZ_4
"This road that I'm taking twists and turns.
My Life, My Chance turning dreams into reality.
Down on this path, faced with so many things.
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away.
Can't seem to go on. And I've been thru' this before.
Now where am I? Where go I stand? A little lost here.
But I'll remember. All those times you've brought me thru'.
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near.
I'll move on. I'll go on. Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along. Survive thru' this storm.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on.
Here I am. Once again. Caught in the rain.
Looking back . I've come this far. And I want to carry on.
Take a step at a time. It's allright.
Even thru' this rain, I want to smile again.
Don't hold back now. And I've been thru' this before.
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here. But I'll remember.
All those times you've brought me thru'.
I can feel the sun shinning down on me.
Here I am. Here I am. Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along. Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may. I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on. "
Sang by Olivia Ong.
Title: I'll Move On
This song here. Tells exactly of my feeling. Everyday no matter where we are. No matter what problem we faced. Just seek God and remember all the good times HE had provide for us. We should have faith in God. Be thankful for each day and be strong everyday in the path that we are walking. One day, we will reach our goal and achieve our vision for God.
God bless people who read this blog. Have a great Easter day. And always be happy.
皆さんは頑張ね。毎日は神さまに頼むね。お元気で。
I love this phrase given by Jesus Life House's pastor today. That's right. Ever since I step into Japan. I can hear peoples' cry for love here. They are crying out for attention and peoples' care for them.
Here in Japan, it is a very advanced country. Everyone is living comfortably for their lives. When every physical need is being covered, people would yearn for something higher, LOVE. Strange isn't it. Those poor country people, would love each other and would appreciate with what they have. Yet, on the other hand, those rich country people, like Japan, they yearn for something which could never be able to be bought by money, which is love.
Everyday in Japan, I felt so burdened. Especially when I walk down on the street, seeing people talking to each other, all I felt is emptiness in their conversation and emptiness in their heart and faces. I wanted so much to tell them about God. Tell them about how great to believe in the one and only God.
I realized that Easter day, today not only about Jesus died for us and rose again. I felt that Easter day is also another event, which is important for us to renew our spirit to walk on the path of life.
God is amazing. I always believe that if we follow HIS plan, HE would provide us with everything that we need according to HIS will and HIS time. I always know the Holy Spirit have being guiding me to find the right church, the right people, the right job and the right university.
Well, ever since I felt that I being "planted" in Japan. Everything I need would be supplied to me. I felt peace in me. God is always with us and would help us walk thru the storm no matter what.
Lastly, let me tell you all about a song I found.
The youtube site for this song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2kESLwpNZ_4
"This road that I'm taking twists and turns.
My Life, My Chance turning dreams into reality.
Down on this path, faced with so many things.
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away.
Can't seem to go on. And I've been thru' this before.
Now where am I? Where go I stand? A little lost here.
But I'll remember. All those times you've brought me thru'.
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near.
I'll move on. I'll go on. Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along. Survive thru' this storm.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on.
Here I am. Once again. Caught in the rain.
Looking back . I've come this far. And I want to carry on.
Take a step at a time. It's allright.
Even thru' this rain, I want to smile again.
Don't hold back now. And I've been thru' this before.
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here. But I'll remember.
All those times you've brought me thru'.
I can feel the sun shinning down on me.
Here I am. Here I am. Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along. Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may. I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on. "
Sang by Olivia Ong.
Title: I'll Move On
This song here. Tells exactly of my feeling. Everyday no matter where we are. No matter what problem we faced. Just seek God and remember all the good times HE had provide for us. We should have faith in God. Be thankful for each day and be strong everyday in the path that we are walking. One day, we will reach our goal and achieve our vision for God.
God bless people who read this blog. Have a great Easter day. And always be happy.
皆さんは頑張ね。毎日は神さまに頼むね。お元気で。
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Boredness in my room
Have any of you know the meaning of boredome? Try to stuck inside a room for a day. Without talking to anyone for a day and only face the textbooks for study purpose. THAT my friend, it is call ultimate craziness.
For the whole day, I just study my japanese language while watching the rain falls outside the window. It is not a pretty sight plus, it increases the blues in my feeling.
Stuck one day in my room, helps me realized how Japanese feels about their house. Sometimes when I go out with Japanese friends here, I heard something about they doesn't like to stay in their room. They rather spend their time outside with colleagues or friends in bar drinking or go to do some gambling, Pachinko and stuff. Well, it is neither related to money saving or like to stay outside. It is about facing the four wall all the time when reach back home.
Have you felt helplessness and loneliness before? The feeling of loneliness and helplessness starts creeping into you when you are all alone in a room, or facing the four walls without anyone to talk to you and help you solve your boredness.
Staying in Japan really is a challenge for me. No matter when I am outside or inside the room. There is always new things to learn. Now I learn that I must face my own feeling myself. Learned that life is not always noisy and fun. Most of the time is about ourselves. Everyone sometimes have to face the war between our inner self and outer self.
Luckily I have God to be friends with me. No matter how long time past, Friends would leave me. Family would leave me. But God would always be at my side. Helping me to grow and give me encouragements. Felt that I am so lucky to be alive and always have God stay in my heart.
These days, when stay in Japan, such a lonely country. Makes me realized that I need friends more. Not onlt it helps me appreciate my friends more. It also helps me to appreciate my family even more.
The longer I stay in Japan, I realized that Japan itself is a developing country. It is the people. These people, they like to learn. They like to see new ideas and experience new things. Therefore, this country keeps growing. Regardless of their non-generous attitude, this country really unique compare to others. People keep on learning, and they keep on growing in mentally and physically.
Overall, I am impressed with the people here. But one thing I have regrets over this country. It lacks of religion concept. It is true that the bible said. The more advance one country become, the worst their religion concept become. Maybe because the busy factor and the independent factor. Makes everyone feels that they must depend on themselves in order to survive in one world.
Anw, thats all I have to say. Japan is a great country. Hope whoever have the heart to come to Japan, be prepare for one BIG culture shock. And this country really needs gospel. Whoever have the heart to spread gospel in Japan, please come. It would be great to see salvation in Japan.
God bless.
For the whole day, I just study my japanese language while watching the rain falls outside the window. It is not a pretty sight plus, it increases the blues in my feeling.
Stuck one day in my room, helps me realized how Japanese feels about their house. Sometimes when I go out with Japanese friends here, I heard something about they doesn't like to stay in their room. They rather spend their time outside with colleagues or friends in bar drinking or go to do some gambling, Pachinko and stuff. Well, it is neither related to money saving or like to stay outside. It is about facing the four wall all the time when reach back home.
Have you felt helplessness and loneliness before? The feeling of loneliness and helplessness starts creeping into you when you are all alone in a room, or facing the four walls without anyone to talk to you and help you solve your boredness.
Staying in Japan really is a challenge for me. No matter when I am outside or inside the room. There is always new things to learn. Now I learn that I must face my own feeling myself. Learned that life is not always noisy and fun. Most of the time is about ourselves. Everyone sometimes have to face the war between our inner self and outer self.
Luckily I have God to be friends with me. No matter how long time past, Friends would leave me. Family would leave me. But God would always be at my side. Helping me to grow and give me encouragements. Felt that I am so lucky to be alive and always have God stay in my heart.
These days, when stay in Japan, such a lonely country. Makes me realized that I need friends more. Not onlt it helps me appreciate my friends more. It also helps me to appreciate my family even more.
The longer I stay in Japan, I realized that Japan itself is a developing country. It is the people. These people, they like to learn. They like to see new ideas and experience new things. Therefore, this country keeps growing. Regardless of their non-generous attitude, this country really unique compare to others. People keep on learning, and they keep on growing in mentally and physically.
Overall, I am impressed with the people here. But one thing I have regrets over this country. It lacks of religion concept. It is true that the bible said. The more advance one country become, the worst their religion concept become. Maybe because the busy factor and the independent factor. Makes everyone feels that they must depend on themselves in order to survive in one world.
Anw, thats all I have to say. Japan is a great country. Hope whoever have the heart to come to Japan, be prepare for one BIG culture shock. And this country really needs gospel. Whoever have the heart to spread gospel in Japan, please come. It would be great to see salvation in Japan.
God bless.
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